These past months have flew by! I can't believe the summer has gone by so fast! Feels like it was just yesterday when I was at Dry Grad and just leaving to go to camp. CAMP. How I miss it so much but it was fun while it lasted. 7 weeks was definitely long enough! (I miss all my friends and family!) I met so many new and amazing people. It really impacted my life. I was a role model to many of the kids I worked with. We had lots of good times ...and there were bad too, but overall we learned to work together as a team --and that's what matters most! I can't wait to go back next year and really make the best of my last year and really try to motivate and inspire all those kids. Wish me luck on that !

After reading Dana's post...I've also come to realize that this is it. I'm no longer in high school! I can't keep doing all those things I've done in high school... going out all the time, skipping school, or not doing homework. Seriously. I got to be more mature! I'm in UNIVERSITY. My life is just starting. And when "all is well, it ends well." If i want my life to be good, i'm going to have to put in an effort. Nothing in life comes easy--or for free! If I'm paying for this education I'm freaking going to get the best out of it...and take advantage of it if i can! (My inner asian is speaking! HAHA) Once September 3rd hits, I'm going to take things differently. I've had all summer to have fun so now it's time to get down & dirty. I'm going to work hard! I need to work hard.

Why do i have to work so hard? Because my parents & family are counting on me to do well. Because I don't want to waste MY time and MY money. Because I want a good, happy life. Because i WANT to work hard. This university business isn't going to be easy or simple. I'll have to try my best. I'm going to expect that university is going to be stressful, difficult, long, and tiring but at the same time I'll be learning and socializing; becoming a strong, successful person that I want to be...that i WILL be. Doing that means I really got to get out of my high school habits... and stop spending so much money!

Always keep an optimistic point of view. Never give up. I have my family to support me and love me. FAMILY WILL ALWAYS BE FAMILY. No matter what happens, family will always be there. Always & I have GREAT friends that will always be by my side. And i'll be there for them, too! Sure we'll fight and have our different opinions once in awhile...but that's what makes a friendship so much stronger (in most cases at least) :/ we are learning more and more about one another each step of the way. I'm not able to go through this whole university thing without my friends. Hopefully they'll stick out for me cuz I know i will stick out for them :)

I really hope things will turn out in the end. I want to be a good role model to my brother and sister AND to my cousins. I want to make a positive impact on other people's lives and I think going to school and doing well is the first step. You can't help others until you help yourself.

CONGRATULATIONS
GRAD `09
We did it! I did it! Muahaha

IT IS SO HOT. IT IS SO HOT I CANNOT SLEEP. but i'm going to try. I can't imagine the weather in mid july to august if i can barely stand the heat now ! It's just the beginning. I hope I don't melt into the ground haha...

:)

Wow. The past weekend was AMAZING. i had SO much fun! yayy!



let's just hope it keeps up...

OH DEAR;

I've got a BIG calculus test tmr and tuesday (it's a 2 day final exam) and i am in the shit ! I need to study but it's honestly so confusing ! I guess I'm going to TRY to pull an all nighter hehe. I've got no time because today I need to go to SFU for my information session and I think it will help me in the future so I need to go tonight... which cuts my calculus study time by 3 and a half hours. Although it will be hard to concentrate today due to the lovely weather, I CAN DO IT ! I am not going to fail ! Anyway, just wanted to write something up :) Gonna study for a bit now until I need to leave. Byeeeeee!


xoxo
K-Dubs

Mr. Sun :) Please shine down on mee !

Today was pretty cold and it partially got warmer in the afternoon but still extremely windy (brrr) Please let it be sunny this entire weekend :) I want to go to the beach hehe. but probably not this weekend, it's still a bit too cold lol i jsut hope it's nice outdoors, though. nice weather makes me even happier :) hopefully the boys will have something planned.... ooooooh them boys hehe. what am i ever going to do ! hahaaa (L) anyway, gonna go take a nap; i really need one !


xoxo
K-Dubs

HEHE. had the most amazing night ever ! LOL hilarious times... wow. i cannot get enough of it :) KEEP IT FUCKING COMING ! haha & it was so random, too ! who would've thought it'd end up like this ? grad is just going to be wayyy more fun... i'm too excited to sleeeep ! lol but i'm going to now. i'd just like to say i had a wonderful night. and no, sophie (...or crystal?), there was no touchy touchy/sexual stuff LOL

Wow. Only 15 more days left of school. I can't believe high school is almost over --already ! Before I kept saying how I wanted high school to be over because of all the drama that was happening but now I'm having such a good time I really don't want it to end. Ah, the real stuff is starting to hit. So I'm just gonna make the rest of the year as fun as possible :)

GRAD 09 !

I still need to get my grad dinner/dance dress annnd book an appointment AH! so little time so much to do ! lol anyway i gotta go get ready for work. see you.

xoxo

i will never forget this night.
shit happens.
all the time.
except everything seemed to happen in one night.
tonight.

lesson learned: obey the law & if you're sleepy, SLEEP !


lol. oh deaaar, what a night !

NICK DENBEIGH

Ever since I saw the Us Against the World music video by Christina Milian, he has been my new eye candy. Check him out!

Us Against the World

Filmed in the sand dunes, this song is about no matter what happens they will have always each other, anywhere, anytime. I find this song hopelessly romantic! If i could sing and had a boyfriend, i would totally sing it to him! HAHA

I'm really proud of Christina Milian. She was from rags to riches. She writes almost all her songs and she can actually sing! She has worked really hard to get to where she is today so I think she deserves some more appreciation from people. I love her new single and I think it should have been at a higher rank. It is definitely not 73 / 100 on the top 100 billboard chart. It should be at least an 85. No matter what, I'm a fan! Keep it up the great work, Christina!

Just taking it one step at a time...

Life's a never-ending rollercoaster ride but,

Luckily for us, there will always be breakdowns.

It’s your life

Things may not always go right, for you

In those times just leave it behind

`Cause sometimes you gotta play the game

Just to survive. Without losing yourself

It’s a fight, it’s true

It takes time, don’t have all the answers

No matter how hard it gets

Hold on to what’s inside

In the dark the paint chips have weighted

Your heart, so deep

Can’t you see? See the light in the distance

Open up your eyes, look, look to the sky

And believe

There’s much more to life when you're free

That’s the key

And in time you will find all the answers

Don’t have to lose your pride

Hold on to what’s inside

Don’t care what they say anymore

There’s no time to be insecure

I'm leaving it all at the door

She's staring at [them] in the face

She’s taking it day by day

I’m finally on my way

Don’t never let nobody bring you down, girl

Don’t never let nobody tear your world apart

Look in the mirror and see who you are

Beautiful U R

- Deborah Cox -

No matter what may happen this year, I will always keep my head held up high. If i don't succeed, I will try, try again. Making mistakes is all part of the deal. What's most important is that I learn from these mistakes. I will not give up & I will not back down from my goals. That is the number one priority. All goals will have obstacles and they be hard to achieve but in the long run the outcome will be worthy.

I am graduating from high school this year. I need to grow up; I need to be less immature. I have the entire world in front of my face and I am going to reach out and gently grab it. I wouldn't survive a year in the real world if I go out like this, right now. I need to make a change, a change for the better.

If I'm going to face the world, I will definitely need some help. No matter what happens, even when we have an argument, family is family. & Don't dwell on past/present friends; life will always move on, honey! I've decided now whom are my real friends and I will keep them by my side to laugh with me, to cry with me, and to play this crazy game, called Life, with me.

I'm just trying to live my life to the max, happily and drama-free. If you don't roll with me, it's cool. Just don't get in my way. I'm serious. Lol.

No, seriously.

It's kinda funny how some things turn out...

But you must make do with the good & the bad,

The happy & the sad

And don't get mad when things don't go the way you planned.

But realize;

the sky's the limit.
Never give up on your dreams.

God is on your side.

Okay, i'm getting ready for tonight but before i leave, i am going to write up this post really quickly or else i will never have the chance to do it (since i'm so busy!) i cannot believe i haven't updated for 3 weeks in total now, haha. anyhoo here's a few pictures from Florida. Disneyworld was amazing. I hope to go there in the future with a bf ;) and my bffs and their bfs lol it may sound superficial, but hey, who knows?

Lol yeah, most of these pictures are of just me since you know, it is my blog :) hehe. anyhoo, i really gotta go. i'll try to update later sometime this week. byee

p.s. SOPHIE! my pictures are freaking MASSIVE! LOL

CONFLICT.

So there's this boy, wait, let's make it two.
They've got me confused & thinking of what to do.
I know I should be more focused on school,
But holding this in my heart really isn't cool
...
I've made my decision, but how to do it?



*

Lol i tried thinking of a poem but my brain just doesn't seem to be functioning properly right now. One thing I know for certain is that this school year is going by too bloody fast. I really want it to slow down but the world's not here to wait for me all day long. One rule: Make the best of it. Fuck the shit that's going on; I JUST WANNA HAVE FUN :)

Speaking of having fun... (it is just around the corner!) I know that the better things in life are always the little things. Going on little walks, going to the library, and simply staying at home chilling with your friends, just talking, is more fun than you may actually think. Some people ask me what I do on my weekends and I reply them without hesitation that I just hung out with a few close friends (without spending much money). Then they tell me how they went to a party and drank or went to an event and I guess compared to what I did, it does sound pretty lame. But it's what's on the inside that counts. I had just as much fun as those people did, who partied & drank. Somehow I totally prefer just playing cards or having dinner at someone's house and truly be myself. I don't hafta get all dressed up in front of my friends all the time --and it's great! Chatting & gossiping & telling each other funny jokes or stories is just so relaxing. This is how it's supposed to feel when you're around people you love...that's why you love `em! Hehe. Yes, I sure do love them & like I always say,

"As time goes on...our friendship will only grow stronger"

*

FRIENDS `TIL THE END

Have I known you all my life?

Or did I just meet you last month?

I don't care. It's what's inside that truly counts.

Your personality, your righteousness & your honesty

Is what attracts me.

As a friend, not a lover, even though you want me to be ;)

Through all of this, I know you'll be there.

Be there for me.

What is a good friend? Well that depends on you.

You want funny, smart, or serious?

Loyal, ethnic, or trustworthy?

A good friend isn't perfect, mind you.

Everyone makes mistakes;

The important thing is we learn from them.

Through it all, I know you'll be there.

Be there with me.

If you're feeling down & blue or if you have great news

I hope you know that I'm only one call away!

I am like the sister you've always wanted with

Helpful ears to listen or a blabber mouth for advice

Needless to say I can put up with your bitchiness

Cuz, Hey! What are friends for?

So no matter what happens, I'll be there.

Be there for you.

Friendships can start & end in a blink of an eye.
They may break up, but they can make up too!
It's everything we do together that builds the friendship.
Without those silly late night calls & endless sleepovers
I'd die of boredom & the loss of great friends.
Well, things change, time flies --it's a new generation.
But through it all, I know you'll be there.
Be there for me.

Okay. I`m feeling wayy too lazy to finish part II. All I have to say is that it was wayy too much fun (or you can creep Sophie`s blog for the details) Here`s something to do when you`re bored:

ABC`s

A - Age: 17
B - Band you are listening to right now: I Can But I Can`t by Das
C - Career in future: CEO of my own company
D - Dad's name: Dad
E - Easiest person(s) to talk to: Amy and my bffs (L)
F - Favorite song at the moment: Us against the World by Christina Milian
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: bears!
H - Hometown: vancouver :)
I - Instruments you play: none :/ I wish i could though...
J - Job title: Student
K - Kids: errrr...none! haha
L - Longest car ride ever: omg...almost 7 hours going to Big White
M - Mom's name: Mom
N - Number of siblings: 2
O - Oldest sibling: ME!
P - Phobias: ghosts
Q - Quote you like: "If you got nothing to live for, best find something to die for." - TUPAC
R - Reason to smile: Good grades
S - Song you sang last: Day I Die - Elias
T - Time you wake up: for today? 12pm
U - Unknown fact about me: I`m Cool :) Muahaha
V - Vegetable you hate: ASPARAGUS!!! EW
W - Worst habit: fucking nothing.
X - X-rays you've had: only for my teeth :D
Y - Yummy food: cheesecake *drool
Z - Zodiac sign: VIRGO

omggg. i wanna sing k so bad lol

Hollaaaaaa` february has been such a craazy month, but it's been fun & in a way challenging. School is going along well and my applications are officially done! Dance is definitely coming along. I'm excited for saturday! The past 2 weeks have been crazy fun!

Last week I went bbt with Sophie, Pasu, Leon & that Nick dude at zephyr and it was so much fun! We played that card game we always play but then....the Nick dude really sucks haha! Then afterward i went to Crystal's with Sophie. OMG. Scariest shit happened! There was a man creeping in the alley to the back where Sophie & I were waiting for Auntie to open the door at the back. He freaking popped out and scared the living daylight out of us. Sophie said, "OH MY GOD!" then half a second later I say, "AHHHHH!" then the man's facial expression is shocked & scared and he says, "OH! Ah! You scared me too!" Anyway, I think I've been to Crystal's house almost everyday! Why? TO CHILL, OF COURSE! haha funny thing was how the first night i went, Grace & Dana were there before! What a coincidence! But then I fell asleep on the floor haha

Then the second night was Allan's birthday dinner at Earls at Lansdowne. Haha before Allan arrived, Sophie & I went to Toys R` Us and we rode the scooter, the skateboard, and we BIKED! haha funniest shit. I rode on the training wheels and a little girl came around the corner riding a two-wheeled bike. So I said to her, "Excuse me!! Can you teach me how to ride a bike?!" Then behind her, her dad came up. HAHA omg & he had the grumpiest look on his face! I think I might replace crystal on my "tagged list" and change "The Grumpy One" to the dad. Anyhoo, dinner was yummy....but definitely not filling. After that, Soph, Pasu, Leon and I went to mcd to eat chicken nuggets! Yum... then we went to espot, neta, rush...all full! So I went to Crystal's with Sophie & Leon cuz we couldn't make up our minds on what to do. Yeah. We didn't do much at first. Sophie & I watched tv while leon dota-ed. Then Sophie accidently unplugged the computer so leon died....on dota that is! haha then leon left cuz he was being a poo poo & "want to go home" Later on Clement arrived with his lover, Joe & his girlfriend, Beer LOL....plus everyone RockBand-ed without me :(

Saturday: GRAD PHOTOS! OMG. I CANNOT EVEN TELL YOU HOW AMAZING THIS DAY WENT! First of all, I didn't have to go to chinese school; Secondly, I went driving which went well; Thirdly, I got ready for my grad photos at Soph's house. Then we went to Artona like about 30 minutes late. There were Yorkhouse girls there but it was still cool. Had a great time! We talked to all the photographers. Fun Fun Fun. THEN WAL-MART!

wait. I will finish this later. Let's just call it a day....PART I.
I will finish PART II tmr.

kbye.

p.s. I'm at Crystal's :)

OMG. I PASSED! i actually passed. I just got the badge and i can't wait to sew it on. If i had failed this exam, i would've nearly quit. I'm so happy. Now I'm able to staff at Vernon :) So this weekend was really tough. I had to exercise (practice sit ups, push-ups, the long jump, and the shuttle run [the beep test]) I met many new people. Like this one guy. He is so cute & sexy! But then, it can only be a crush cuz nothing can ever happen. Not that I really want anything to happen, actually. Haha. But now, i can finally re-focus on school, once again! Yay!

So yeah. Hope you all had a good valentine's day! Until next time, checking it out!

Wow, another week has gone by so fast! Big White was absolutely amazing :) I met new people and the trip itself was fabulous. The only downside to this trip was that it wasn't long enough ANd it's wayy overpriced. Still, it's not everyday we get to go up and you-know-what, haha. Anyhoo, i don't feel the need to talk about Big White anymore because that's over and done with (it was absolutely fun though!) Ohhh, and here's the phone I got :)

I love it (L)

Life is so good right now :)

I've got only one more application to do, scholarship essays are good, i'm 99.9% sure i am going to pass NSCE, i'm loving my friends & family, school is pretty much going up the hill, i'm going on a trip with my bffs during spring break to disneyworld, dance with dana and swana is not bad AND IM GETTING A CELLPHONE TODAY lol... the list just goes on and on. life just couldn't be better. plus, seeing crystal getting in trouble in fral class is just so funny ;)
WOW!!! - crystal
good times...good times

i'm all smiles :)

LOVING LIFE!
k-dubbs

p.s. except for the fact i'm not going to the britney spears concert (like sophie!) lol oh well...next year, anyone?

all i want to do is enjoy life.

Why do some people make things so complicated? Just making a big deal over nothing. Really, I believe we make the choices that make our life either easy, hard, or balanced. For example, if you choose not to do your homework, you are making your life harder in the long run because you won't know anything. Don't always expect people to help you because they are not always going to be in your life. So right now, why don't you try to make it easy? If you don't start now, who knows how long it's gonna take for you to get back on your feet.

Not only that, why do people try to make your life a living hell? What's the point?! Don't be caught up in doing shit like that when you should be enjoying your life! I try to live by the rule:

Do unto others as you would want them to you

If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it. If you're gonna be critical, use constructive critiscm. Right now, I'm just trying to take the "easy" way in life by doing all I have to do now --independently. I hope you do, too. Just live your life.

wow. i feel as if i haven't been on the computer in forever yet it's only been 3 days since i've last posted. ahhhhhh, these past 2 weeks have been extra hectic. most of the time after school i would go home and sleep because by the end of the day i am extremely exhausted! nowadays, the only thing that has been on my mind is school. i'm trying really hard to bring up my grades and i've been applying for post-secondary. i am also writing up scholarship applications which are such a pain! therefore, since the new year, i haven't gone out-gone out--at all. I haven't watched any new movies, i haven't gone shopping, i haven't done anything! for this whole month i am going to be so busy!

i can't wait for this semester to be over because i will be in Florida at DisneyWorld with my HOMIES!!!!!!! (L) Sophie, Crystal, and Swana during spring break! I am so excited! Gone for 7 days! :) Lemme make a list right now before I go to bed.

• 3 summery dresses
• flip flops & 1 pair of heels for a nice dinner
• shorts & t-shirts
• hair straightener/curler
• passport! lol
• sunglasses + contacts + reg. glasses
• bikinis x 3
• journal
• 2 sweaters + 2 jeans
• accessories (necklaces, earrings, etc)
• hygiene kit (toothbrush, razor, etc)
• camera! lol sophie can bring her polaroid once she finds it ;)
• hat & purse & wallet
• COSMOPOLITAN MAGAZINES!!! muahaha

i know there's more...swana and i made a list lol but i can't remember all of them since i'm trying to remember the 5 formulas for calculus at the same moment.

...i feel like such a hypocrite! :( here i am typing up all this nice stuff that i'm bringing to disneyworld while poor children are suffering out there. hmmm what should i do?

what the shit...i found out children actually get paid 3 cents an hour.

Sometimes i wonder about the saying... funny things happen to funny people. hmm? I don't think I'm all that funny but this week has been randomly REALLY funny...

Monday: 805am
I decided to eat cereal for breakfast. My cereal is located on top of my refrigerator. I reach up to grab it, put it on the counter top. Then I open my fridge for the milk. I make my cereal. Then I put the cereal and milk away. Only mistake--- I put the cereal box in the fridge instead. When i realized what i did, i ACTUALLY lol'd and said "wtf"

Tuesday: 1107am
We were all waiting for Dana to come for her "surprise" of the mini-cakes. Grace wants to put candles on them but Allan says No, it's such a hassle. He also says that he, himself, can be the candle and that Dana can blow him. 2 seconds later he adds on that he's really hot . . . like a candle! seriously. what a joke!!

Wednesday: 205pm
Me, Betty, and Tiffany are sitting in Geo class. Randomly Betty starts laughing. I ask her, "What's so funny!?" She says: "Because it's so cold in ___(name of place i forgot)____, all the parking meters froze." We all look at each other and randomly start laughing.. it wasn't even that funny...but somehow, it was funny? well. derick in glasses was pretty funny :)

Yeah. I just spent the past 4 hours applying & searching for universities and colleges. Why are applications so expensive?! Plus, filling out all those applications were REALLY annoying, plus, i'm still not done! I have 2 universities and 1 more college to go... Hopefully I'll have a miracle and get accepted asap without complications.

I was reading a book on Tuesday night right before I went to sleep and found a really interesting statement. Let me quote from it.

Sam: "God, I look like shit without makeup.:
Anna: "I don't think so."
Sam: "That was supposed to be sweet, right?"
Anna: "So you think...[I] (was) sucking up to you or something?"
Sam: "Pretty much everyone else does."
Anna: "Why? ...Because your father is __(famous celebrity)__?"
Sam: (sarcasticly) "Aren't you the rock scientist."
Anna: "There are dozens of famous people...Your father is just one more. So I don't see what the big deal is."
Sam: "...My father isn't just A-list. He's A-plus-plus-plus-practically-in-his-own-stratosphere list."
Anna: "And that's what you think is important?"
Sam: "That's what everyone thinks is important."
Anna: "I'll be sure to mention that to the starving children in Africa."

The A-List
Zoey Dean

Holy. Sam made me furious AND opened my eyes. I know this yet i keep neglecting this fact: We are so selfish. People always wants the best of the best, but do they realize what is going on around the world? Yeah, i know it's crazy hard to stay away from brand names and junk food and luxuries we don't actually need when we know that there are poor, sad, starving children in third world countries that have nothing. Some of them may even be enforced into child labor. Child labor?! wtf.. For 7 cents an hour, these children are slaving away making items for us from Nike or whatever. 7 cents an hour. Seriously. What the shit is that? People, get a conscience!!! Don't you feel guilty? Please don't tell me i'm the only one...because from now on. I am not going to EVER buy anything from Nike. (it is the only corporation i know of, for now, that has children working for their PROFITS) shit son. is money REALLY that important when you're actually lowering these people's esteems?

Some things are just so overrated. But I know this: A little change can make a big difference; it takes only one person to start this change which will eventually spread as quickly as a fire. You know what they say, "two heads are better than one."

Heeellllooo 2009!

Hopefully this new year will be just as good as the last. I'm excited since this is my last year of high school. Right now, all i gotta do is focus in school & stay true to my friends and family, and most importantly, FOLLOW MY GOALS! May you all have a wonderful and prosperous new year :)

I'd like to re-cap on a few highlights of 2008:
-Swimming with Sophie & them boys at the "club"
-Pigging out at Matsuyama and bbt places
-Christmas dinner(s)
-parties :) grad events, crystal's, family
-shooopppiing
-COSTA RICA `08 ♥
-dance lol
-computer classes with keri & parm + brittany martin!!! LOL
-hotput + lunch at my house during spare with crystal
-sophie's birthday party
-billions of movies with sophie & them boys
-random talks on the phone (L)
- i love my t.v.! >>gossip girl & family channel HAHA
-sad, super, amazing asian dramas at amy's housee
-FIANLLY CLEANING MY ROOM MUAHAAHA
-yummy food

Wow. This list can go on and on and on... I'd just like to take this moment to thank everyone that has been part of my 2009. Thanks for the memories :) Although there were many "downs," there were also many "ups" to compensate for it. I will always learn from my "downs" and try to make myself a better person to make more "ups." Sorry to those that I've hurt and only grattitude for those that have made me laugh. Gracious

Keep the kodak moments coming! Love.

I've only got one life to live, I might as well make the best out of it. Live.Love.Laugh

Bye Bye 2008